It seems as though my core group of friends all hit their peaks and valleys together, as if there is some sacred solidarity in numbers. i'm in a rut and i can only assume that others are as well. i want to be the rock everyone needs to beach themselves on for that safety breath of air, though it seems as though im just as much a piece of flotsam as they are. i'm the driftwood to their, well....driftwood. i wanted to believe in the subtle symbiosis of friends, but it feels like the blind leading the blind.
to quickly change things before they dare to get personal, my mind's been wandering lately. who actually reads this thing, and how can i get more people reading this thing? i think my writing is graduating to less shitty, and though it's great that you read it, i wouldn't mind if more people gave me insight into what is still shitty about it. in case you dont know, i sort of plan on giving this writing thing a go. (this means i want to fix what's crappy, which is lots) i know this means i'll have to write something of substance soon, but, so be it.
fuck. this means i have to write, like a story or summat, huh?
